Tired...

What sort of mischief do you think they are up to?

I have been exhausted recently and really all over the place as far as emotions. Allen and I went on a date this past weekend and I asked him what the best thing about living here was and the hardest thing so far. And of course, he was sweet but his answer to the hardest was me and my emotional rollercoaster. Anyways, as our Father is always so good at doing. He has really given me understanding and some grace for myself recently.

The first thing he showed me was that I have 2 children, 14 months a part. Who does that? Not many people. And though I love it and wouldn't have it any other way they are both at very demanding phases. Ben is a 2 year old and really starting to assert his will and his desires. So, we are learning all about training and correction. He really is a great kid but it is demanding and the need to be consistent is so important. Nate is super laid back but he is on the move. He is not walking yet but he can crawl like lightening. He can crawl up a flight of stairs. Oh, plus, he is teething so not sleeping great at night. I was at the park with them yesterday and Nate is no longer content to just sit in the stroller he wants to be down crawling around. So, I have Ben trying to climb to new heights and Nate tasting every bit of dirt, sand, rock, along the way. Kinda crazy!

So, you think that that would be enough for me to give myself grace and be ok with taking a nap in the afternoon when they do. However, on Sunday I went for a run and again I was talking to the Father about my life and he reminded me that a year ago I could not have run the 40 minute run that I was doing. For one, I was recovering from major abdominal surgery, aka a c-section, and two I was in the middle east! So, in the last year, we have lived on three different continents, said, "hello and goodbye" to more family and friends than I want to think about some days and now we are here starting over with a 2 year old and a 1 year old. Wow! Ok, there is a reason, I am tired.

However, I am seeing small victories! I am reading some great mommy books that are super encouraging. We are really getting to know people in our neighborhood and more and more when I go places I see people I know. VERY FUN! I am thinking about starting a toddler group in my home once a month or so. I have met lots of stay at home moms in our neighborhood but first we move this weekend!! YEAH!! Looking forward to having my living room, dining room, kitchen and bathroom all on one floor!!